Shadowcaller wrote: ↑Dec 21, 2022 4:35 pm
[Dulcie Dreams]
"Don't worry about that, people rarely do. Kill themselves because of a loved one dying I mean. The grief they feel on some level people usually realize that if they too die then everyone they know is going to feel just as terrible as they do in that moment." The goat remarks and seem to consider something for a moment.
"Do you know where you would go if you die? The nexus is connect to many underworlds and some of them are quite nice. Mine is... not so much. But you would probably end up in a much better one than that."
[Dulcie Dreams]
Dulcie blinks, seeming to pause for a moment.
"Erm, I mean - I don't actually expect anyone to commit suicide over me! I'm just... well, It's like I said. I don't want to get everyone's hopes up just to devastate them even further. I'm worried about how my friends and family will take it when I finally die. My parents have already gone through so much to support me."
As Dulcie speaks, the floral wallpaper patterning the room around them seems to shimmer and fade, dissolving into film-grain static. The image of a living room coalesces into being, warm and cozy and lit by a fireplace. An elven woman sits in a loveseat, tall and willowy and with hair like a wisteria in bloom, the mayhem loosely restrained by a hairband. She's dressed in a paint-stained lab coat and talking indistinctly to a somewhat heavyset man in his forties on the couch opposite, trimmers in hand and green eyes intent on a bonsai in his lap.
"I don't know how my siblings will take it either," Dulcie goes on, seemingly unaware of the change around them.
"Cayenne's always been so positive, and we aren't super close but she's always wished me well on my treatments." The static shifts to show a ginger-haired girl a little younger than Dulcie, all motion and verve as she juggles a soccer ball in the air on the front yard. She turns to wave at the camera, lips a wide smile.
"And Euryalos..." at this thought, Dulcie hesitates, hands fiddling with the comforter.
"Well, I don't think he hates me anymore, but -" This time, the image is grainier, older. A nine-year old boy stands on a linoleum floor, thin and fair and full of embarrassed rage. He looks the spitting image of what Dulcie must've been at that age, blue-eyed and ginger-haired. His voice slips into the dream, pitched and hurt.
"A-and stop wearing a dress when my friends are around, ya hear? Jake thought you were me earlier!"
Dulcie winces, then shakes her head, banishing the unpleasant recollection away. What surfaces instead is the same boy but older, more sullen. He lingers by a bedroom doorway, hesitant to step in, and looks to the same olive-skinned man from earlier.
"She's... she's going to pull through again, right?"
"I'm... I'm worried the most about Kahu, though." What comes next is much clearer than the rest, crisp as a summer's day. A teenage girl with brown skin and dark eyes stares intently into the camera. Mascara and tears trail down her face and a pale pair of hands squeezes her own, scared to ever let go.
"I- I couldn't imagine being without you," her voice echoes. Dulcie wipes away a tear.
"That hopeless idiot. She still just can't say it."
"it's all gonna hurt them in some way when I go, and - I mean, I don't even know if I'll see them again. I don't really... follow anything. Maybe it'll be Elysium if I'm lucky." She sighs.
"Probably not where Kahu's ending up, though - culturally, I mean. Not that I'd want to see anyone I love there with me for a long time."